Trust in the Light, Even in the Darkest Times
I am forever grateful to all the ancestors that supported me on this journey of healing.
I fell in love with life and she took my hand and loved me all the way back.
In my teens when I struggled with depression and couldn't see the light or even summon up the will to keep living - I told my therapist (I was 16) I only want 2 things from life:
To travel freely and explore the world and connect with people from all walks of life
To be happy 28 days a month vs being sad 28 days a month like I was
And life has delivered - I am happy and I explore the world.
In my adulthood I've often been happy 28 days a month, maybe because I’ve known what deep bottomless sadness feels like and had to learn at a very young age to dance with that crushing darkness.
Whatever the reason, I am happy and I sometimes find myself teary because I realize that the universe listened to 16 year old me.
Adulting has taught me to love myself, to love life and to clap for myself and others even when no one else is doing that. I feel like these are lessons I am embodying fully.
I am always in awe to see just how supported, held and loved I am on my travels, which all adds to my gratitude.
What I have learned on this journey is that nothing lasts forever, all things do change. I have learned to trust even when it is dark, because the light does shine after the darkest night, even when it seems impossible.
