The Fear Of Having Money In The Bank

Sometimes we don't want to have money, because we're scared of money and we just don't know it.

We're in a relationship with money, similar to a romantic relationship.

And just like a romantic relationship, our past experience with our lover affects our behavior today.

Our lovers trains us on what to expect from them.

So if for years we would ask our lover to show up when we needed them and they always disappointed us, it would be normal for us to have trust issues with that lover.

We'll stop asking them to show up for us or just learn to live with whatever little attention they've trained us to accept.

In fact, we sometimes think we may lose that lover if we demand different treatment.

Or we leave that relationship and look for another lover.

Being In Survival Mode & Healing the Beggar Archetype

"Beware of those that can only love you in your brokenness and can only connect with you through suffering.

They will make you fall in love with your pain and eventually your anger and your sadness will become a prison.

Pain and struggle can be a prison...allow yourself to explore who you are beyond these walls.

Allow yourself to evolve and dream. Your expansion lies in the ability to dream."

That was a message from my higher self in early 2019 and I keep coming back to this message because it reminds me to give myself permission to evolve and thrive.