All tagged ancestral healing
I'm haunted cos that girl reminds me of me at 15, except I loved my granny to death but I remember being in my teens and telling both my parents I hate them and all I wanted was to leave home and never see them again (actually this was common for me to say to them).
No matter what happens around me, I try to get 1 massage a week and try as much as possible to regulate my nervous system and schedule non-sexual physical pleasure into my daily schedule.
There's this insidious belief that people misuse money because they didn't go to school and only people with no university degrees are in debt.
Or that people are poor because they are lazy.
A while back, we had someone moving into her dream apartment and she posted daily, sometimes 3 times a day in the student group, sharing her deep insights and fears and the pain of being the first in her family to move to her own place and live alone.
A while back, in the middle of a full body workout with my personal trainer, I felt all this fear and sadness in my body (especially my womb) and stopped the session to scream into pillows, went back to the workout, paused, did some womb breathwork and then fire breathing.
There’s a part of me that needs this to keep myself playing small and to keep punishing others so I can be the victim and have someone to blame.
But there’s an even greater part of me that’s scared of stepping into my own power so it finds new ways to keep me playing small.
